One
of the deepest places in Fluxxus
was far from the darkest. The den at the
end of the tunnel leading west from the junkyard was sheltered from the
elements by five meters of compacted rock, which the tornado had left
somewhat
scrambled but fundamentally unchanged.
Yet, in the first hour after sunrise, it was as bright as any
windowed
home. The most prominent feature was the
shaggy green rug on which all else stood; it was encrusted with all
types of
discarded, excess matter, but it was a precious relic of the past,
recording
times of carelessness and times of gluttony alike, and letting nothing
slip
from the memories of its owners. A
cockroach lived there, though she hadn't built the place-she'd found it
as it was,
long ago. She was living with another,
however, and it was together they'd caused most of the upsets this rug
remembered. He stayed there with her
most days because it didn't occur to him to leave the comfort of that
den for
the junkyard and its ambiance of random materialism.
Sometimes he had to work on things which
couldn't be brought inside, and on those days he toiled beside the
keeper of
the junkyard, twisting what he was told to twist, fixing things in his
own
special way when only his fingers could fit the task.
The longer he worked, the more satisfied he
was to return to his beloved Ziggy, built much more to his own scale,
and far
more capable than his boss of making his work seem worthwhile. He liked to drag things in to share with his
cockroach, and they spent many a night splashing blue fluids on the
shelves to
see if they would get any cleaner, or laying tracks for tiny bolts to
rock back
and forth in forever, or trying to make fireworks out of cryptic
locomotive
processors. Their home was only a room,
but to them it was quite spacious, and they were always trying to
provide for
more action going on around them than two individuals could produce on
their
own. They were skilled at entertaining
themselves.
Handy
was the
name of the cockroach's love, the junkyard worker who also organized
all the
entertainment events for the hamlet of Fluxxus, and was popular in an
upright
way with everyone. He was nothing more
than a walking glove in shape, white and smooth. Ziggy
loved Handy's shape-his five fingers
were like her six legs in their play-and she loved his skill and his
spirit. She knew that he was capable of
working with anyone to make them more efficient, a refresher of both
the
physical and mental worlds. She loved to
be refreshed.
They
had gone
together to the mayor's speech, and had walked home together feeling
none of
the chill Clucketta and Kangaruffian had experienced.
They lacked the words to say why, but then
they had no cause or reason to find the words.
If they had found the reason for their relative comfort, it
would have
been this: they loved for things to seem alive even when they were not,
and a
prophecy substantiated would be life found in the fates.
So a prophecy bore nothing to fear.
Ziggy
woke up to
the sound of refined oil dripping from a slotted pot hung from a
crossbeam into
a slate tray rimmed with stainless steel that was propped up at her
bedside. She clicked her feelers with
admiration to see the colors blend on the maturing work of art before
her. Eight hues of wax had been affixed to
the
eight slots; eight dripping streams of color grew from the sun in the
morning,
mixed with the oil, tempered it, and became an intricate melange. Each night, a different eight colors were
used, or the same eight in altered positions, so that each morning a
fresh
image appeared on the slate as the sun beamed into the room and melted
the
wax. Ziggy the cockroach had taken to
scrutinizing these images in depth, impressing them firmly onto her
consciousness so that they would not be forgotten during the course of
the
day. What she saw in her morning plate
told her what the day would be like, even if she had to make it that
way
herself.
This morning, the oil had suffused into the playful
blue,
spreading it to the very corners of the tray.
The brick red was a streak dissolving into an indefinite
blackness, and
the tawny wax had mixed unevenly beside it, leaving minuscule flakes
along its
edge. The vermillion had done its best
to imprue the sweeping blue field, but ended up lost.
Ziggy was lost as well, in the details of the
sun's heedless work. She did not look at
Handy until he was leaning on her, and only then did she click her
mandibles
and fall back, letting the picture impress itself onto her retina,
where it
would remain in essence as long as the sun was in the sky.
She turned her eyes to him.
"Is
it the
last day?" Handy asked her, watching the morning plate as if it were on
the verge of becoming animate.
"No,"
answered the roach, her brown-goldish face nearly still and yet
marvelously
expressive. Her voice was a buzz, two
slow sounds speaking at once, like the auditory equivalent of the world
spied
through the mottles of a colored goblet.
"But there are two stripes that begin together.
We could be those stripes," she said
meaningfully, "if we wished."
Handy's
voice was
far more relaxed, and tended to leave a comically goofy impression in
outside
environments. With Ziggy, his was the
voice of the real, solid world, reminding something more numinous of
its
existence. In this voice he asked,
"Haven't we been together for years?"
"When
I went
to give Deadhead its rations yesterday," came the finely swathed
answer,
"it told me about a tradition from prior times. There
are ones who stay together, but then,
there are ones who pledge that they will stay always."
She eased the tray out of its slot, and then
crouched under it and took it onto her back.
She glanced at Handy, who glanced at the hanging melodiphone
whose
dulcet hammers, plinking softly in the background, were powered by the
glaring
sun.
"We
can't be
together all day long. We have work to
do. Different work," he said.
"I
know," buzzed the roach, "I know, and that isn't what I
meant." Gracefully, she let slip
the tray into a tub of soapy solution, and came forward again. "It's simply a ceremony. All
we need are tokens, and vows, and the
attentions of our friends...and we will be guaranteed eternal life
together."
"Eternal
life?" asked the skeptical Handy.
"How could that be?"
"It
is the
magic of love," answered Ziggy, clicking her feelers together. She stretched them to touch Handy in two
places between the fingers. "No one
else can have it because no one else has found it."
"Eternal
life is something found?" he asked quietly, turning his attention
inward
to the hollows where feelers moved.
"It's
as
simple as finding wind-ups," Ziggy answered smoothly.
"Finding them with the constancy of
love. Never faltering, and never
dying." Finding wind-ups was, in
fact, Ziggy's specialty, her work and her role.
She knew that if a search pattern were adopted and adhered to,
it would
be possible to find enough of them to allow everyone to remain healthy
forever,
only moving the village every twenty years.
There was no reason life could not sustain itself for all time. Nothing was that could not be replaced or
replenished. She had often told Handy
that that was why they made the perfect pair: his job was to replace,
hers to
replenish. She knew he was thinking of
that now, wondering whether to believe its greatest implications.
His
fingers
loosened, and he fell into a squat. He
asked, "Is this the best time to be asking the fates for gifts? Trouble could come from it.
If we demand eternal life, someone else might
have to pay. Maybe even everyone
else."
"Life
is not
a liquid. It can be created, and it can
be destroyed. These two things are most
independent."
"Why
bring
it up now? If we really can be
guaranteed eternal life, why only mention it just after the Plicate
Rook falls
in? It seems eerie of you."
"My
cherished," murmured Ziggy, "I mention it only now because Deadhead
found it only yesterday. It was looking
through a book searching for omens of death, and found an unexpected
omen of
life. It had the insight to pass it on
to me. Now, we can take from this
prophecy something great, the flip side of the dread it bears. This thing called marriage is the opposite of
dread."
"Is
that its
name? Marriage?" asked Handy.
"It
is, and
all it will take from you is a ring, or a band of something precious. Look for it today while you work." Ziggy
retracted her antennae demurely and
glanced away. "I will look at you
less until this is done," she went on.
"That is part of it. I will
not be here when you return tonight."
Handy
flicked
away a scrap of fuzz. By remaining
silent for several seconds, he implicitly agreed to the arrangement,
sudden
though it was. After a while, he asked,
"Is it that we have to be fresh in each other's minds for the thing to
work?"
"Probably. I do not
know. It is a ceremony, my dear. It
is hard to know why. Let
us follow it nonetheless."
Handy
put out his
fourth finger and set it on the cockroach's head, deciding then and
there to
take this ceremony entirely as seriously as Ziggy wished to, even if it
was
destined to be a cipher in the end.
"When will it happen?"
"As
soon as
everyone has stopped dreading the prophecy.
As soon as we can get them to come together for us."
"Will
I see
you tomorrow morning?"
Ziggy
made a
humming sound of temporary indecision.
"Yes, for a while. In the
mornings, we will be together. But now,
you should go. Your work will be
waiting."
Handy
lovingly
retracted his finger. "I trust
you," he whispered, which was his contribution to Ziggy's idea. Ziggy gave him a tiny nod, and turned
away. Handy moved away, through the
tunnel to the east. As he came out, he
entered a world that had much more sky, but in his judgment, was no
brighter
than the one from which he had come. He
prepared himself to report for work, and to begin his search for a ring.